Feeling So Alone, By Kaylee S.

Feeling So Alone 

By Kaylee S.

Ladies, I know a lot of times our parents can be unreasonable or we think that because they don’t understand what we’re trying to tell them.  Sometimes my dad makes me so mad, so I’ll just run upstairs and lock myself in my room.  I tell myself that I’m not coming out and I’m not going to let him in.  I just want everybody to just go away and leave me alone!

So I start crying out to God and I think “Well not everybody” because I want Jesus to be with me.  I want Jesus to be really with me.  I mean… really!  Sometimes I feel so alone and that my dad will never understand me, but I believe Jesus is always with me, and of course I start talking with my mom again,  telling her how much I love her and miss her and I wish she was still here with me.  And I tell Jesus that sometimes I feel like an orphan because I feel so alone, and I tell Him that if He knows that, why won’t He help me?

Sometimes… everything just seems so confusing, but I should be able to figure some things out, right?  I’m 14; I’m not some little girl anymore, so why can’t I figure out what to do?  So I ask Jesus to help me because I’m very confused about everything… it almost seems like I’m in some kind of prison.  And I don’t want to go back downstairs because I know this is just going to happen again. 

But one of my favorite things to do is I scream as loud as I can in my pillow.  And I tell Jesus and my mom that I just want to be loved.  I ask Jesus to help me because sometimes I think I’m going insane.  I hate all this evil in the world and I just want to come home with Him.  I tell Him that I’m tired of this… I’m tired of always feeling alone and tired of being confused so help me… please!  I always say please though because that’s just being polite, right?

So I opened my Bible and this was so weird because I just opened it and just started reading.  I was reading Romans 8:38-39 (emphasis added).

“For I am certain that nothing can separate us from his love: neither death nor life, neither angels nor other heavenly rulers or powers, neither the present nor the future, neither the world above nor the world below---there is nothing in all creation that will ever be able to separate us from the love of God which is ours through Christ Jesus our Lord.       

Wow!  I want to believe this so much!  And I have to because Jesus let people crucify Him for me, so, how do I really believe this?  All I could think of was to pray, so I did.  “Jesus please help me, please help Your daughter stop being so confused about You and the Bible.  Help me believe what I just read so that it is so real in my life, so that I can say with absolute confidence that You love me.  And help me no to get so mad at my dad because I know he loves me to, but I just wish that he would understand me and I ask that you help him do that.  I don’t want to get this mad anymore because I know that You don’t like it.  So I ask in Your name sweet Jesus that You make me the woman of God that You want me to be… and please show me who that girl is.  Thank You sweet Jesus and I love You!”

So I’m going to read these 2 verses before I go to sleep and believe that someday Jesus is going to make this love very real to me because it is the love that I desperately need and want!

And eventually, I go downstairs again. My dad and I forgive each other… because we do love each other, even when we misunderstand each other.

Victory In Jesus, By Kaylee S.

Victory In Jesus

By Kaylee S.

I have the best BFF in the world!  Her name is Trish and we’ve been BFF’s since we were 3 years old.  We do everything together and we’re pretty much the same except she wants to be a boxer when she gets older, and I want to have a modest fashion store.
But we like a lot of the same music and food and fashions… and guys!  We do everything together and we tell each other everything.  I am so happy that Jesus put Trish in my life.
I did say we share everything together and that’s so true, everything that happens to us including life and death.  And I have to say right now that we are sharing something that everyone is going to share, or they maybe already shared it a little bit… but Trish’s dad died!
I don’t think that there’s anything more sad than when we lose someone we love.  I say that because I know… my mom died when I was 4 years old, and I miss her every day of my life.  So I know exactly what Trish is feeling.  And I was thinking maybe one of the reasons that we’re friends is because Jesus knew that we would both lose one of our parents.
I don’t know how many nights I cried myself to sleep thinking about my mom, and now I know Trish is going to lose a lot of sleep thinking about her dad.  Sometimes when I’m crying I ask God to destroy death right now and just make everything good again.  Then I thought about these verses that talk about life and death.   
1 Corinthians 15:54-57  So when this corruptible shall have put on incorruption, and this mortal shall have put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, Death is swallowed up in victory.
O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?
The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law.
But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
PRAISE GOD!!!  How wonderful is that?  How absolutely wonderful is Jesus for destroying death by dying on the cross.  A cross where He was made to die… for life!  A cross where there was complete humiliation, and pain, and sadness, and death… and Life!
And 1 Cor 15:57 is so very important and wonderful… “BUT… Thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ!”  How absolutely, positively wonderful is that? 

Love… or not! By Kaylee S.

Love… or not!

By Kaylee S.

My mom died when I was 4 years old.  Jesus knows how many nights I spend crying in my bed before I go to sleep.  Sometimes it takes me a long time to get to sleep because I would be praying and talking to my mom.
I would ask her how she is doing, and that I know she’s very happy being in heaven with Jesus.  She doesn’t have any more pain or sorrow, and she’s not infested with sin anymore!  I am so happy and sad at the same time when I think about her.  I’m happy that she's happy being at home with Jesus, but I am so sad because I miss her so much!  Sometimes I think that I’ll never be able to stop crying.
But I’m still here, in this sin infested world.  I pray so much that Jesus would take me home too, but I  don’t know… I might live to be a very old lady.  Me and my dad had a big talk yesterday cause I didn’t have school and I told him everything.  I did that!  I had to because I’m so tired of not saying anything to anyone… well I mean except Trish my BFF.  But I don’t tell anybody anything.
He told me I have to stop carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders.  But I don’t think I can.  I mean when I go to school and see all the girls gossiping, and swearing and calling each other really bad names it hurts me.  I don’t know why it just does. 
But I was reading my Bible this morning before school and I read this verse:

Matthew 24:12  And because lawlessness will be increased, the love of many will grow cold. 

And the word lawlessness bothered me.  So I got my dad’s Hebrew/Greek dictionary and looked it up and it said “lawless, wicked, the lawless one.”  And I think there’s some place in the Bible where it says Satan is the lawless one and that really scared me!  And I was thinking that when we’re lawless we’re just like Satan. 
And since Satan is the opposite of God, and the Bible says that God is love, Satan is hate and that’s what I see a lot of in school… hate!
So if we’re Christians we should know that God is love, and if we are God’s children, we need to stop fighting with each other, and hating each other, and love everyone.  It just makes sense I think. 
I mean if God is love, and God lives in us, shouldn’t we be loving everyone too?  Like the song says “And they’ll know we are Christians by our love!”

The Love of God! By Kaylee S.

The Love of God!

By Kaylee S.

John 3:17  For God sent not the Son into the world to judge the world; but that the world should be saved through him.
 
When I talk about Jesus with other kids at school it seems like they have the wrong idea about Him.  They think that Jesus came here to say “bad girl” or “bad boy.”  It makes them think that a lot of things they are doing are wrong and that they are going to go to hell when they die.
I know sometimes it’s really hard to handle correctly the convictions of the Lord because He loves us  so much, and we can easily start thinking that He really likes swinging that paddle! 
When I told this one girl about Jesus she said the only reason she doesn’t follow Him is because of that.  She said she knows she can’t be good and she doesn’t want to always hear Jesus say “you are such a bad girl Gloria.”  I said to her “welcome to the human race!”  I told her everyone feels like that but we can’t go by our feelings, we have to go by Scripture.
We have to remember that Jesus loves us so much that He’s going to tell us every time we do something wrong, not to make us feel bad, but to protect us!  He tells us when we’re sinning because He loves us so much and doesn’t want us to get hurt!
A lot of times when I think that Jesus is telling me that I’m doing something wrong, I feel bad.  But I have to remember that He does that because He loves me!!!  He doesn’t want me to feel bad or think that He’s mad at me. 
So I told her this Bible verse and when I did it’s like Jesus was a big cheerleader yelling in my ear with a megaphone, “I didn’t come here to earth to judge you.  I came here Kaylee to save you because I love you.”  I keep hearing that over and over again and I never want to forget that!  My God, my Savior, my Wonderful Counselor always leading me in the way I should go.
So the next time we tell someone about Jesus we have to make sure that they understand that Jesus came here to save us… not to judge us!  

Marriage: A Wonderful Gift From God, By Kaylee S.

Marriage: A Wonderful Gift From God

By Kaylee S.

Marriage!  What an absolutely wonderful gift from God.  I think about getting married a lot, and I think most girls do to.  I think that my prince charming is going to be a wonderful man who loves Jesus with all his heart, and loves me too!
That’s the most important thing I want from my husband, for him to love Jesus and want to please Jesus more than anything else.  That’s so important to me!  If he loves Jesus more than anything, and wants to obey Jesus with everything… that means he is going to love me so much because that’s how he is being obedient to the Lord!
I go to so many different fashion stores online to look at all the modest wedding dresses and I could spend all day doing that and not be bored at all!  I look at all the bouquets and corsages and veils and headpieces and the halls all decorated and the church all decorated… I just get so excited! 
When I think about my future husband loving me like Jesus loves the church I get all goose bumps!  I think every girl wants that.  I never met Hillary who made GGFG, but she told me she was engaged to be married and how happy she is!  She is very pretty and her fiancée is a very handsome man and they both love Jesus.  I am so happy for her and I pray that their love for Jesus and each other lasts forever and ever.  Such a wonderful time!   
Eph 5:25  Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it;
This is all I want from my future husband!!!  It kind of sounds like it’s not a lot, but to me that means everything!  That’s love!!!  What do you think is the most important characteristic of your future husband?Write us at godlygirls@yahoo.com!
Oh here’s some pics of Hillary and her Fiancée.  I asked her if I could do this and she said it was OK!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=85937&id=1111290001&l=ef5e59026c

Love in Bad Times! By Kaylee S.

Love in Bad Times!

By Kaylee S. 

Revelation 1:1  The Revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave unto him, to shew unto his servants things which must shortly come to pass; and he sent and signified it by his angel unto his servant John:

Revelation 1:2  Who bare record of the word of God, and of the testimony of Jesus Christ, and of all things that he saw.

I would be so scared if Jesus showed me that!  Jesus showed the apostle John things about the end of the world.  I hope and pray that I’m not here when that happens.  I think if Jesus would have shown me all the things he showed the apostle John, I think I would go crazy! 
I think a lot about Jesus coming back to earth and healing everything… and making everything right.  I keep forgetting that a lot of bad things are going to happen before Jesus comes back.  Families and friends are going to hate each other and kill each other because we believe in Jesus.  And there’s going to be wars with the antichrist… very scary!
That’s why I think it’s so important that we love each other so much - that we pray for each other, be with each other, help each other, and love each other!  We have to be strong!  So many people need help right now with jobs and money.  We just have to try and help them any way we can.  That’s what Jesus would do, right?

Food or Rocks? By Kaylee S.

Food or Rocks?

By Kaylee S.

Sometimes when I read the Bible it’s really hard to understand.  I have to read it over and over and sometimes that helps me, but a lot of times it doesn’t.  My dad told me if I really want to know the Bible, I have to know what Israel was like back in the days of Jesus.
I love history and I thought this would be really fun.  Well, I was reading Matthew chapter 7 and I didn’t really see anything about Israel’s history.  But when I read verse 9 I started laughing so hard.  I was thinking that this must be the Jesus comedy hour!  I read it again and I couldn’t stop laughing.  I though those people couldn’t be that stupid… or could they? 
Matthew 7:9 it says: Or which one of you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone?  I thought that’s a really cruel dad that would do that!  Then I thought what would I do if my dad did that to me?  If I asked my dad for 5 dollars and he gave me a pumpkin, I would think “Kaylee, he’s starting to lose it!”  But then I was thinking that maybe Jesus was saying it so easy, or making it so simple that they would really understand.
Maybe Jesus said such a stupid thing, so that they would believe Him when they asked Him for something.  So if I ask Jesus to help me get a better grade in math, will He give me a better grade in History?  I think if we ask Jesus for something that’s going to really help us, we should believe Him that He’ll give us what we ask Him for!

Trouble and Joy: What a little baby brought to the world, By Kaylee S., with credit to her SS teacher, Rebecca

Trouble and Joy: What a little baby brought to the world

By Kaylee S., with credit to her SS teacher, Rebecca

Christmas!  I love Christmas.  When I go with my dad to buy Christmas gifts I get so excited because I get to see all the Christmas lights and decorations that all the cities put up, and a lot of the businesses have decorations and Christmas lights too.  Then I see a lot of houses have Christmas lights on, and a snowman, and more decorations… and the falling snow is so white and glistening… it’s just all so pretty!
Then I think about the birth of our Savior Jesus and how much joy and trouble it caused.  Joy for all the world and those people who will accept Jesus into their heart as their Savior, and the trouble that His birth brings to the unbelievers.
The power of God is a wonderful and fearful thing because we can see from both side of the fence.  First we have those whose heart jumped in fear about the birth of a baby.  A baby!!!
 
Mat 2:1  Now when Jesus was born in Bethlehem of Judaea in the days of Herod the king, behold, there came wise men from the east to Jerusalem,
Mat 2:2  Saying, Where is he that is born King of the Jews? for we have seen his star in the east, and are come to worship him.
Mat 2:3  When Herod the king had heard these things, he was troubled, and all Jerusalem with him.
Little baby Jesus being born, brought fear to a King and a city.  How wonderfully awesome!  A little baby!  But, not just any baby, a King… the King of Kings who is going to rescue everyone who comes to Him to receive forgiveness from their sins, and eternal life!
But Herod was a King too, how worried could he possibly be?  Well, worried and frightened so much that he was going to kill this little baby.
Mat 2:13  And when they were departed, behold, the angel of the Lord appeareth to Joseph in a dream, saying, Arise, and take the young child and his mother, and flee into Egypt, and be thou there until I bring thee word: for Herod will seek the young child to destroy him.
Mat 2:16  Then Herod, when he saw that he was mocked of the wise men, was exceeding wroth, and sent forth, and slew all the children that were in Bethlehem, and in all the coasts thereof, from two years old and under, according to the time which he had diligently inquired of the wise men.
Satan’s plans to kill Jesus had begun but, on the other side of the fence there is great rejoicing! 
Mat 2:2  Saying, Where is he that is born King of the Jews? for we have seen his star in the east, and are come to worship him.
Mat 2:10  When they saw the star, they rejoiced with exceeding great joy.
Mat 2:11  And when they were come into the house, they saw the young child with Mary his mother, and fell down, and worshipped him: and when they had opened their treasures, they presented unto him gifts; gold, and frankincense, and myrrh.


Rebecca my Sunday school teacher said that Jesus was the most radical and rebellious man that was born into this world, because everything that He said and did was in direct opposition to this world.  I remember when she said that I thought that was so cool and wrote it down so I would never forget it.  Radical and rebellious to this world’s system!
Today, we’re seeing people from both sides of the fence.  Those people who love and celebrate Christmas because they love Jesus, and those who are still following King Herod and trying to kill Jesus!  Praise God!!!  

Far is Near, Short is Long, By Kaylee S.

Far is Near, Short is Long

By Kaylee S.

Sometimes I feel like Jesus is so far away from me.  I listen to a lot of Pillar, and Audrey Assad, and Yancy, and I love music so this helps me.  It helps me a lot because I love Jesus and I love music, but sometimes I don’t want to stop listening because I know if I do I feel further away from Jesus. 

When I stop listening to them I still feel sad so I’ll go on my dad’s computer and use Paint Shop Pro or Coreldraw and try and make some pretty graphics, and that’s fun but I still feel sad.  So I’ll stop that and go downstairs and bake something.  I love baking things and that makes me happy for a while, but when I’m done I’m still sad.

So when I’m all done fooling around with all the worldly things, I pick up my Bible and start looking through it.  I did all these things today after I came home from school and about an hour ago I read John 11:35.  I think it’s the shortest verse in the Bible, but for me it was really long.  It says Jesus wept!  That’s all, but when I read I that thought “Jesus is God and He was crying when He was here.”  Jesus is God and He was crying. I couldn’t stop thinking about that. 
So I listened to some more music and I was making some more graphics, because that verse started really bothering me, and then it was like Jesus rang a really loud gong and said “Kaylee, I cried a lot when I was there just like your crying right now, its very sad on earth so just know that I love you very much.”  Jesus cried a lot when He was here and told me it’s OK to cry because He loves me. 

So now I’m not as sad as I was before because Jesus told me He loves me and it’s OK when I’m sad.  I just have to remember that when I’m really sad, Jesus is thinking about me and still loves me a lot.  One thing I was thinking about was that I never heard Jesus that loud before!

How Beautiful, How Wonderful, By Kaylee S.

How Beautiful, How Wonderful

By Kaylee S.

John 14:2  In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.

How wonderful and beautiful that Jesus made a place for us in heaven!  He says if it were not true that He would tell us.  My mom is there with Jesus right now, and a lot of times I think how happy she is being with Jesus.
I am so sad sometimes and I miss her so much, but I’m so happy that she is with Jesus right now!  I try to think what that would be like… no more of the terrible things other girls say to me, no more thinking that I’m not pretty enough, no more crying, no more hurting, no more sin.  Just me being with Jesus and my mom and all my family, and Jesus loving me forever and ever.  This is like, too good to be true, but it is true, and I can hardly wait.
But I am waiting… and waiting… and waiting…  and sometimes I think about some things I love like my dad, and all my girlfriends, and GGFG, and chocolate brownies… Mmmm!  Then I think that being with Jesus is going to be a lot better than all those things because there’s not going to be anymore suffering and death!  This is very good news, and the Bible tells us all about it!

Our Loving God, By Kaylee S.

Our Loving God

By Kaylee S.

Good morning ladies!  It’s 4:30 in the morning and I don’t know why I woke up so early, but I thought I would write something that’s in my heart right now.

John 3:16  For God so loved the world that He gave His only-begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.

How wonderful to have such a loving God!  Our heavenly Father loves us so much that He sent His own Son to die for us.  To take death away from us all and transfer that death to Jesus, our Father’s only Son, is a love that escapes me in its beauty.  A love that is so far beyond and above our limited and sinful minds that is so wonderful, and beautiful, and graceful, and loving, and peaceful and so many other things… it really boggles my mind.
I’m sure I get this from my dad, but I get so far into the deep things of God, that sometimes in the summer at night I’ll go outside and sit in the back yard, and gaze up at the stars and just pray and think about Jesus.  What is heaven really like?  I’ll talk to Jesus for a while and then I’ll talk to my mom, and I know that one day Jesus will take me to go to heaven to be with Him. That’s exciting for me and I can hardly wait.  To think that one day I’m going to be with Jesus!

So, I know we live in a world where there is evil, but I try to think of the good things that Jesus does for me, like giving me my BFF Trish who I love so much and I know that she loves me a lot, and when I think about eternal life that Jesus gives me… I am so lost in His love!  But I was thinking what other Scriptures can you find that talks about how much God loves us? 

Write us what you think of at godlygirls@yahoo.com !
Remember to put the subject as, "How much God loves us."

Pleasing Jesus With Our Fashions, By Kaylee S.

Pleasing Jesus With Our Fashions

By Kaylee S.

I’m usually a quick thinker but I started my second article for GGFG, and this is the fourth article that I’ve been a quick thinker about! :)  I wrote an article, and then I erased it.  Then I wrote another one and I erased that one.  I did that 4 times, but I’m going to keep this one because I think it’s so important. 
I love fashion!  Well, kind of.  I love fashion, but I hate going to the mall sometimes and seeing all the clothes for girls and women, because they are so revealing!  It’s a happy/sad time I have there.  The one day I went to Charlotte Russe and some of the dresses there were so revealing, the Holy Spirit just threw a thought in my mind that I never forget… The more skin a girl shows, the more sin her heart grows!© 
A very revealing thought by God is how He looks at the way we dress. That day I went there to buy a dress and left shaking with that thought.  It bothered me a lot for the next couple days and I prayed and asked for forgiveness, and told Jesus that I wouldn’t wear any fashions anymore that were revealing. 
This is a very long subject in my mind and I would like to write a book sometime about women’s fashions and the consequences we will endure if we continue to sin. We need to take our responsibility in this area.
Here is a link from Dannah Gresh’s web site that has a guide for us girls dressing modestly.  Jesus loves you!
http://www.purefreedom.org/media.asp

The Love of God! Pt. 2, By Kaylee S.

The Love of God!  Pt. 2

By Kaylee S.
 

I am obsessed with Jesus!  He is life!  He is my reason for being!  He is my everything.  He is my love and He lets me cry on His shoulder almost every day.  He is my happiness and I laugh a lot at all the funny things that happen in my life.  He is my peace and helps me remember Him when bad things happen to me.  He is my Joy and makes me happy when I am sad.

So when I studied about Jesus crucifixion I was very very sad, but I am so thankful for what He did for me.  He died for me!!!  Well actually, Jesus let men kill Him for me, and for everyone in the world.  And His death was the most scary death I ever read about.

I really don't know why Jesus suffered so much when He died.  I mean couldn't the Romans just put Jesus to death very quickly?  I think they could have, but I don't know why they didn't.

Ladies, I have to say, that what I'm writing about is very scary and so sad, I cried when I was reading it and still cry about it.  But Jesus did this terrible thing for you and for me.  The love of God... what a marvelous and wonderful thing He did for us, but for Jesus, it was so very painful.

This is about Jesus’ death.

When I think about this first thing, I am just so bewildered how a person could let anyone do this stuff to them.  Jesus knew what was going to happen to Him! 

He knew exactly what was going to happen so when He went to the Garden of Gethsemane and He was praying to His Father in heaven, He was sweating blood!  That is so gross!  I can't imagine somebody doing that but that's what happened.  That's where the soldiers arrested Jesus.

But I looked at pictures of the garden of Gethsemane and it is so beautiful!  There are lots of beautiful flowers there.  So pretty for something that was so ugly it made me think of the love and hate that was there that night.

Luke 22:44  And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly; and his sweat became like great drops of blood falling down to the ground.

Then I was thinking if I would do what Jesus did.  He knew the terrible death He was going to suffer, and He still did it... because of our sins!  Oh the beautiful love of God just amazes me!!!  So they took Jesus away and He was led around the city to see the chief priests.  With Jesus walking from here to there they think He walked about 2 and a half miles.  That is a really far ways to walk! 

So when Jesus was waiting to be put to death, there were soldiers there that were beating Him.  And they beat Him up so much He was bleeding because of them punching Him in the mouth and the nose.

Then they put a crown of thorns and His head and beat Him up some more.  I was thinking when I read this how many times I pricked myself with a needle when I was sewing something.  It really hurt!  But being pricked by a bunch of thorns ripping through His skin had to be extremely painful.

Then they made Jesus carry His cross.  And He carried it about one third of a mile, that's 1,760 feet.  His cross was in 2 pieces, the horizontal part and the vertical part.  The horizontal piece of wood weighed about 120 pounds.  They don't know how much the vertical piece of wood weighed but it was a lot, which is why Jesus fell one time.  He was so tired that He couldn't carry the cross anymore so the soldiers got someone else to carry it.

Then they came to the place where Jesus was going to be crucified.  Ladies I have to tell you that this part is so very ugly!  It is extremely violent so please check with your mom and dad to see if they'll let you read this.

First they stripped Jesus COMPLETELY!  I know we all seen a lot of pictures of Jesus crucifixion but I never knew that they did this.  Then they used a whip that was called a cat-o-nine tails.  It's a stick with 9 pieces of leather on it.  And they put little pieces of clay from pots at the end of the leather straps, then they whipped Jesus.  The cuts that the clay made were about 2 inches long.  They whipped Him 39 times because that's how many times they whipped all the prisoners.  Whipped with 9 pieces of leather with clay at the ends of them, 39 times... and each cut being about 2 inches long.  Jesus back was so torn up that the clay started hitting His bones.  After they did this they beat Jesus up some more.

The reason they beat him up a lot is because the soldiers didn't want people to live a long time when they were crucified.  That was their way of being merciful.  That is just so ugly and disgusting! 

Then they placed Jesus on the cross and pounded the nails into His wrists, not His hands.  If they put the nails in Jesus hands they would have ripped out because of how much He weighed.  That's why sometimes they used rope and tied the peoples' arms to the cross.

Then they pounded nails into Jesus feet!  After Jesus was nailed to the cross He would try to lift Himself up a little bit so He could breathe.  Because being crucified like that it was hard to breathe so He would lift Himself up a lot of times so He could take a breath.  So from the time he died on the cross until the time Jesus arose was about 36 hours. Doctors today say that Jesus died of suffocation. 

This next part just really bothers me so much.  After Jesus died, a soldier took his sword a stabbed Jesus in the side.  I'm pretty sure the soldier stabbed Jesus in the side to see if he had already died or not, and to fulfill certain prophecies (that his bones were not broken, as they had broken the others' legs to ensure a quicker death so they could no longer pull up to breathe).  The place where the soldier stabbed Jesus was in His side.  I don't know why I thought of this but, that's where God took the rib from Adam to create Eve.  I thought since Eve was the mother of all creation maybe that was the solder's way of killing every human being who loves Jesus!  

This whole thing is just so ugly and disgusting, but Jesus let this happen so that we could be forgiven.  Ladies Jesus did this for me… and for you!  I just can't imagine anyone letting people do this to them, but Jesus did, so that we could have eternal life!  When I was writing this I just started crying because I knew that this really happened.

I praise God so much!  Jesus love for us is so... unimaginable, so intense, so extreme!  Jesus loves us so much He let all these men do this to Him... so we could spend eternity with Him... forever and ever!  Such love totally amazes me, and I want that love so much!!!  Don't you?