Far is Near, Short is Long
By Kaylee S.
Sometimes
I feel like Jesus is so far away from me. I listen to a lot of Pillar,
and Audrey Assad, and Yancy, and I love music so this helps me. It
helps me a lot because I love Jesus and I love music, but sometimes I
don’t want to stop listening because I know if I do I feel further away
from Jesus. When I stop listening to them I still feel sad so I’ll go on my dad’s computer and use Paint Shop Pro or Coreldraw and try and make some pretty graphics, and that’s fun but I still feel sad. So I’ll stop that and go downstairs and bake something. I love baking things and that makes me happy for a while, but when I’m done I’m still sad.
So when I’m all done fooling around with all the worldly things, I pick up my Bible and start looking through it. I did all these things today after I came home from school and about an hour ago I read John 11:35. I think it’s the shortest verse in the Bible, but for me it was really long. It says Jesus wept! That’s all, but when I read I that thought “Jesus is God and He was crying when He was here.” Jesus is God and He was crying. I couldn’t stop thinking about that.
So I listened to some more music and I was making some more graphics, because that verse started really bothering me, and then it was like Jesus rang a really loud gong and said “Kaylee, I cried a lot when I was there just like your crying right now, its very sad on earth so just know that I love you very much.” Jesus cried a lot when He was here and told me it’s OK to cry because He loves me.
So now I’m not as sad as I was before because Jesus told me He loves me and it’s OK when I’m sad. I just have to remember that when I’m really sad, Jesus is thinking about me and still loves me a lot. One thing I was thinking about was that I never heard Jesus that loud before!
